Emily Deschanel is getting honest about the struggles she had on set of her show Bones.

The 48-year-old actress played the role of Dr. Temperance Brennan on the show for its 12 season run. As a guest on David Duchovny‘s Fail Better podcast on Tuesday (July 8), Emily got vulnerable about struggling on the set of the show.

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On the podcast, Emily revealed that her ADHD and dyslexia diagnoses made memorizing lines for the show difficult. The actress shared that during the first season, she had trouble remembering the technical jargon that should have come naturally to her character.

“We were working insane hours, longer than just a normal series. You’re working 14- to 16-hour days, and then I had to memorize the lines. So I’d be staying up late night memorizing lines. I would joke that I would go home and just cry in a bathtub every night because I was just so overwhelmed,” Emily admitted on the podcast.

Emily went on to reveal that after being late to set one day, series creator Hart Hanson came to her trailer to have a blunt discussion with her about her performance on the show. She said, “He took me aside and says, ‘The studio has concerns about your work.’ They said that I was late and unprepared. That to me — I get emotional just thinking about it now because it was probably shame.”

After that, Emily revealed that she was able to get help from the production team in order to memorize her lines better and her issues subsided as the show went on for its impressive 12 season run.

“Hart helped me find ways to be better, get my job done in terms of learning my lines and remembering them and a lot of it was having downtime or having some scene that I’m not in, etc. He’s just a good one. We were so lucky,” Emily said on the podcast.

Watch Emily‘s podcast appearance below and see what she said about re-watching Bones.